Its been over a year..

Its been a LONG time since I've been on here.

I'VE-

had a baby
got my G.E.D
moved a million places
got cheated on again and again.
got a job
quite my job
got another job
broke up with my byfriend
g0t back together with my boyfriend
broke up again
got back together AGAIN



And i have recently figured out that life is a BITCH

When you think everything is fine it will just bite you in the ass
And that shit hurtts.

If it wasnt for my son i would run away and never look back !!
I guess alott of people feel that way though. everyone has problems
some are just worse then others.

i feel like my boyfriend is getting worse and worse everyday.
I want to be in love again!!

3 pounds :)

OMG i have great news i have gaind 3 pounds its soo exciting!!..

i think its the ice cream i eat so much ice cream and shakes everyday now and i think there paying off..
i just cant wait to gain 10 or 20 more pounds that would be amazing. id have boobs ;)
i dream of having boobs and a ass... YAY!

My morning

I woke up this I fed my nephew and then I ate a pop tart.

I love food its the best thing ever ..

My boyfriend didn't call me today.

A couple months ago..He cheated on me with a girl that has curves and a body.

I think that's when started obsessing about gaining weight.
Or maybe it was when i was in school and people use to make fun of me for being so skinny.
I've never had a eating disorder but i have been called anorexic and bulimic. It really is hard to be made fun of every day you go to school because of something you cant do anything about.

My sister told me that I didn't have a bikini body because I was too skinny. Her boyfriend calls me a crack head. I don't understand why people have to be so mean.


If i could change i would..

Im skinny and i hate it

Skinny ...why does everyone want to be skinny?

I understand wanting to look good and sexy but why do you have to be a tooth pick?
It is kinda weird coming from a 82 pound girl like my self but i didnt choose to be this way.
i would love to have curves and FAT for goodness sakes!! i have nothing but bones and its not cute its not sexy its discusting and i hate my body.

Eat? people tell me all the time. Really? im not a fucking idiot. i do eat i eat alot all the time and after i eat im always in pain. My stomach always hurts. Why? you ask i have no clue but it does it really does.

And people want to say oh im 120 pounds im soo fat really what about shut up. Be glad your not 200 or 300 or 80 bc im sure that would be way worse then 120.